Close To Home.

Daddy,
It seems the people that place the biggest ache on my heart are my family. Kirk and Jackie need you. I look at my brother whom I adore and admire and see the anger under the surface and the raw need in his eyes. I look at sweet Jackie who is so beautiful and so impressionable and see the discontent and the longing for pure, unconditional love. How to meet these needs? Time is so short. In 6 short months Kirk will be headed off to training for Korea and Jackie to her family in Nevada. So little time. You have radically changed my life these past couple of years. That radical love you gave me begs for radical obedience to follow. Please, help me to have that radical obedience. others had, the courage to obey you and shared the Gospel with me. Where would I be if they had let fear overshadow the call you placed in their lives? Give me radical devotion to you Father. I cannot bear to give you less.

Your Living Martyr

New Loves.

Dad,

What, oh what, do I do? These girls are such a blessing to me. They are beautiful and intelligent and sweet. There is so much I want to teach them. There is so much I want to learn about them. Where to start? I want everything that they see in me or hear from me to be straight from you. Every word must be yours or it is worthless. Help me to cast off the sin that entangles me. Help me to remember them in prayer daily. Help me to live what I preach. Help me to love like you love. Without you, I am nothing. Without you, I have nothing to give. Help me God.

Overload.

I feel like in Bruce Almighty when he gets all of the prayer request emails. I am overwhelmed by the needs of others. I know we are supposed to bear each others burdens and petition for the other saints, but how does one do this without getting overwhelmed? I want to lift up my brothers and sisters but how do I do this consistently without being weighed down?